Well lets start this rather pesimistic (but with a small ray of hope) blog with a rather disturbing occurance. Due again to my bastard mates being lazy fucking arseholes who cant be bothered to leave their dull little houses to come to a night of amazing music, I may have encountered a small problem :(. Although hopefully have my own tickets sorted out and 1 mate - there were 3 of my mates, mates who wanted to come. But because of MY other mates delaying tactics, the tickets can no longer be delivered and instead have to be picked up at the KOKO box office. Now that wouldnt necessarily be a problem accept i have to show the card i ordered with when accepting them, and that clearly will show them that I am in fact 17 and thus not allowed into the event. But as I said, hopefully I should be ok due to Cait having extra tickets - so to be brutally honest if they cant get in tough.

But this Blog is not to be about the Yeti performance at KOKO, no no. This is about my life and how the general downward slope of happiness since the peak which I believe occured around the age of 9/10. In school year 4 I was indeed happy most of the time, shyness only effecting conversations with adults and school work easy as pie, twas a brilliant time.

 I was thinking about drawing a graph to illustrate but i thought fuck that, I cant be arsed, so I just ask you to imagine - age 9/10 I am happy as larry but in the years since I have slowly become unhappy until my 17th year. When 16 everything was appearing to be falling to pieces, my shyness being very annoying plus my schoolwork also taking major falls, it felt like everything was just getting worse and worse. BUT - heres where the hope kicks in, since my 17th birthday I have been on the up in terms of my happiness, quite possibly due to the large increase of alcohol in my diet but still, so far, since ive turned 17 Ive been pretty damn fine. Now the hope turns back into severe pesimism, I fear that this unfortunately could just be a 6 month blip in the overall life cycle, this fear is mainly due to the fact that in approximately 2 weeks the results of my AS levels come out, which I am not particularly looking forward to. And my 6th forms tough re-entry process may mean that I could be dropped off my Physics course (that exam was apauling) leaving me studying only 2 full A levels and where would that get me? ahh well. You win some, you lose some.

This Blog was inspired not only by the inpending AS results but the hope bit is more due to a family gathering that I had yesterday - I have this really rich uncle who has a HUGE house in sevenoaks, with a pool an acre of land - 7 sofas (on the ground floor), u get the picture. Anyway, they bore cousins, Lucy who is about 5 months younger than me and Jamie who is 2 weeks older than my sister. Basically we were all great friends when we was little - probably till the age of about 9/10 when they were over we couldnt be seperated, but as time went by, we grew apart and over the last few years whenever in their presence barely mutter a word to them. But yesterday seemed to be the breaking of the ice between cousins, we started chatting more freely again, me and Lucy even joined forces to take the piss out of my sister. Was a good feeling.

Anyway thats it for now - Not long till KOKO and the hopeful success it should be

Well no actually it hasnt been particularly sunny but the other bit is spot on, since the yeti gig a whole week ago now I have been very lathargic (good word). Ive spent most days waking up in the early hours of the afternoon then playing a bit on the computer, chatting to various people on msn sometimes for 8hours straight....

Ive really got to start doing something with my holiday so that I dont just wear it away like i have done for the last few years, I doubt I will be going on any form of a holiday this year due to the stubborness of both my parents wanting what they want and not willing to compromise and I refuse to be used as an arguing tool so next time I am confronted in this manner I will make it clear that Im not gonna go anywhere with people acting like that, it will be the great holiday boycott of 2005.

ok so over the next few days I am gonna make a more concerted effort to do something with my dreary days, so guys i know you all read this now, what shall we do.. a game of footy in the park.. a film.. or a good old fashioned booze up, im guessin it'll be the third but at least its gettin out of the house.

thats it BYE - and everyone buy the yeti single - keep pushing on

out August 29th

and for that matter fuck forever shud be comin out August 8th, get that too

Well due to Wednesday being such a great day I thought it only right that I should make plans to attend the gig at the KOKO club on 4th August. And this time I am telling my mates with a good week and a halfs notice rather than the 2 days I gave last time and already that is looking to be paying off with one saying its a good chance he will come (I havnt yet told him about the 2am finish but we'll work on tht).

Yeti are rapidly moving up amongst my favourite bands. My favourite track of theirs, om not sure yet it was never lose your sense of wonder, then merry go round but since the gig in like with you and keep pushing on are in there aswell, its too close to call - but I have to point out that John Hassall although brilliant in every way is still no Pete Doherty, he may be playing silly buggers with drugs but he is still the most legendary legend ever.

As far as bits that I left out of the last blog, beer spilling over myself - thank you miss rachael I did leave it out for a reason, although it wasnt my fault I was making my way through a very crowded pub holding too full to the top pints, just because laura was using me as a battering ram to give her an easy path through just not fair.

Yes the skirt made entirely of ties was indeed very impressive, the colours were lovely but the twirl to show it off could have used some improvement

Photographer who I believe goes by the name of Malcolm was mad, he let PNB get hold of the camera I mean I just dont understand it, but apart from that he did take some good pictures, I'm sure he wont mind me advertising them www.mckipper.co.uk go to the bit about Yeti of course. Although he didnt manage to put up any of the direct pictures of us as a group I do believe I found myself in one of them, yes that tall gangly figure behind the pole, unless im mistaken it is me.

Umm short people with funny names and sommat about Jesus I cant remember and my trainers are old but trustworthy so dont mock them

Thats about it for now, to Cait, Rachael, Laura and whatever the names were of all the others, hope to see you all at KOKO, farewell