WELL, there is so much  that happened and so little that I am prepared to say.. haha

It all started rather badly to be brutally honest, my mate wasnt allowed in which was a bit of a blow and made me feel like a complete bastard but oh well... I had to get in, there was nothing gonna stop me from hearing the wonderful tones of mr. John Hassall (and Harmony Williams, and even occasionally Andrew Dejan-Jung).

So I got in and there was a band on for about 5mins only so i didnt really get much of that, then there was another band, no idea who they were (i really should have listened for the names but as i didnt i shall just list them in chronological order of performance until Yeti) and they were crap to put it bluntley, so I was bored, my mate wasnt there and I had at that point no alcohol in my system. That was soon to change though a nice Fosters was headed my way, which i drunk pretty quickly in the hope that it may liven me up a bit.

The third band on were there 'cos they won some channel 4 competiton or sommat and despite a shaky start I actually thought they were pretty good but unfortunately dunno who they were so it doesnt matter

More drinks of course followed and then another band took to the stage again pretty decent but it might just have been that the alcohol was beginning to mess with my brain at this point - In physical appearance they looked like a typical bunch of scousers and if i remember rightly they were so my judgement cant of been that bad.

By the time the 5th band were on we had moved right up to the front, near the stage in preperation for the band that as far as I was concerned was the main event - the 5th band were again not bad, the lead singer had pretty decent hair aswell and amongst the jubilation of the performance there was a lot happening.. including Rachaels hair nearly being set on fire and a strange dude who was almost certainly drugged up walking around and looking for his mate.

Then.... YETI. They were again brilliant despite the fact that I was in so much pain cos i needed 2 go piss really badly yet knew i wouldnt b able 2 get back to the front if i did. Any way that aside they again played all the top tunes allthough i did miss the insect eating man song that they did the other night, was a shame but still was awesome. I have made my decision, Merry Go Round is deffinately my favourite of their tunes.

We had to leave straight after Yeti, despite I believe 1 band still left to play, but we needed to get to the station before the last train and because i didnt kno when that was, 12 seemed a good time to leave. More fun and games happened on the train with the avoiding of the "mixture of scrambled egg and salmon" looking/smelling vomit on the floor and the wind tunnel affect on Caits hair. Ah but then again they all got off at Bank, goodbye hugs, then I sat down, plugged in the MP3 and then away to Colliers Wood.

My mate was ok though, he went and had a general booze up in Wimbledon and so said that it was ok, I have let him off paying for his ticket aswell 'cos I am just that nice.

No more Yeti in London for the foreseeable future ;'(, oh well, see all you lovely people again some time

Well lets start this rather pesimistic (but with a small ray of hope) blog with a rather disturbing occurance. Due again to my bastard mates being lazy fucking arseholes who cant be bothered to leave their dull little houses to come to a night of amazing music, I may have encountered a small problem :(. Although hopefully have my own tickets sorted out and 1 mate - there were 3 of my mates, mates who wanted to come. But because of MY other mates delaying tactics, the tickets can no longer be delivered and instead have to be picked up at the KOKO box office. Now that wouldnt necessarily be a problem accept i have to show the card i ordered with when accepting them, and that clearly will show them that I am in fact 17 and thus not allowed into the event. But as I said, hopefully I should be ok due to Cait having extra tickets - so to be brutally honest if they cant get in tough.

But this Blog is not to be about the Yeti performance at KOKO, no no. This is about my life and how the general downward slope of happiness since the peak which I believe occured around the age of 9/10. In school year 4 I was indeed happy most of the time, shyness only effecting conversations with adults and school work easy as pie, twas a brilliant time.

 I was thinking about drawing a graph to illustrate but i thought fuck that, I cant be arsed, so I just ask you to imagine - age 9/10 I am happy as larry but in the years since I have slowly become unhappy until my 17th year. When 16 everything was appearing to be falling to pieces, my shyness being very annoying plus my schoolwork also taking major falls, it felt like everything was just getting worse and worse. BUT - heres where the hope kicks in, since my 17th birthday I have been on the up in terms of my happiness, quite possibly due to the large increase of alcohol in my diet but still, so far, since ive turned 17 Ive been pretty damn fine. Now the hope turns back into severe pesimism, I fear that this unfortunately could just be a 6 month blip in the overall life cycle, this fear is mainly due to the fact that in approximately 2 weeks the results of my AS levels come out, which I am not particularly looking forward to. And my 6th forms tough re-entry process may mean that I could be dropped off my Physics course (that exam was apauling) leaving me studying only 2 full A levels and where would that get me? ahh well. You win some, you lose some.

This Blog was inspired not only by the inpending AS results but the hope bit is more due to a family gathering that I had yesterday - I have this really rich uncle who has a HUGE house in sevenoaks, with a pool an acre of land - 7 sofas (on the ground floor), u get the picture. Anyway, they bore cousins, Lucy who is about 5 months younger than me and Jamie who is 2 weeks older than my sister. Basically we were all great friends when we was little - probably till the age of about 9/10 when they were over we couldnt be seperated, but as time went by, we grew apart and over the last few years whenever in their presence barely mutter a word to them. But yesterday seemed to be the breaking of the ice between cousins, we started chatting more freely again, me and Lucy even joined forces to take the piss out of my sister. Was a good feeling.

Anyway thats it for now - Not long till KOKO and the hopeful success it should be

Well no actually it hasnt been particularly sunny but the other bit is spot on, since the yeti gig a whole week ago now I have been very lathargic (good word). Ive spent most days waking up in the early hours of the afternoon then playing a bit on the computer, chatting to various people on msn sometimes for 8hours straight....

Ive really got to start doing something with my holiday so that I dont just wear it away like i have done for the last few years, I doubt I will be going on any form of a holiday this year due to the stubborness of both my parents wanting what they want and not willing to compromise and I refuse to be used as an arguing tool so next time I am confronted in this manner I will make it clear that Im not gonna go anywhere with people acting like that, it will be the great holiday boycott of 2005.

ok so over the next few days I am gonna make a more concerted effort to do something with my dreary days, so guys i know you all read this now, what shall we do.. a game of footy in the park.. a film.. or a good old fashioned booze up, im guessin it'll be the third but at least its gettin out of the house.

thats it BYE - and everyone buy the yeti single - keep pushing on

out August 29th

and for that matter fuck forever shud be comin out August 8th, get that too